*sigh* hmm... i feel like i'm being pulled in all directions in all different aspects of my life... i want to do well in my classes... but unfortunately, despite my studying, that doesn't seem to be a happening thing this semester... ...which really frustrates me i hate not doing well in my classes... and when i say "well" i mean getting on the dean's list.... that's a goal i've set for myself to achieve all through college... and i've accomplished it up to this point... but even with all my studying i'm getting no where..... grr....so frustrating.... but then! God whispers, "hey! you know that's not important" which is hard for me to hear... and i agree with it to a point... however, God's given me the ability to do well in my classes, and, in the words of steve prefontaine, to give less than my best is to sacrifice the gift but then there's the part of me that thinks, "yes that's true, BUT! when you define yourself by your grades and not your relationship with the Lord, that's not good" so... have grades become an idol in my life? i don't know.... and that frustrates me.........not knowing *sigh* and alas, i have wasted too much time even tonight... two tests tomorrow...and one's a doosy... on a lighter note, I'M GOING TO MINNESOTA THIS WEEKEND!!! YA PROJECT REUNION!!! *can you tell i'm a little excited??*  i seriously can't wait.... so great..  | 
